The hyperarousal intrustions of bodily distortions or ::Bodily ablutions hyperarousal abreacations and pornographic purgations of traumas

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Bodily ablutions hyperarousal abreaction and pornographic purgation of traumas

The distortions of the naked body in kinetic and or potential action. Actives. 


Below is an excerpt left out of a personal "Artist Bio"

A series of works on paper feature themes of the human body of all identities, identifications, shapes, genders, sexual orientations and roles flood claustrophobic rooms.  Sometimes alone, sometimes with others.  Awkward and ambiguous opaque stories unfurl grotesquely and obscene.  These extremely raw explorations are the pursuance of searching seeking a catharsis.   As a survivor of sexual as well as violent emotional abuse, these drawings are not out to shock or grovel in pornographic gymnastics.  These manifestations of extreme visuals are exorcism, even if they fail.  TO understand the grotesque is to understand the true nakedness of being and existing human.

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 MEMORY FIELDS CONCERNING THE MANIFESTING ETERNALIZING INTERNALIZED POST tRAUMATIC

 hyperarousal

Intrusion

constriction

Trauma mutilates the process of integrations

THe body is missing whilst your in the body.

The body goes missing while you are engaging inside the body.

The body goes missing while are engaging your body with another body or bodies.

Ablution--deals with ceremonious cleansing with liquids

Abreaction is a release OF EMOTIONAL TENSION(S) through recalling a traumatic experience(S)

purgation purgation purgation

                                                                   womanslY



           
                               

                                                                     waisT
                   

                                                waist unambitious ambiguous

                                                                      erect vagina

                                                 erectional insides black maelstroms

                                                two bodily wraiths stalkin tha insides outsides

                             Someone I know and you know A woman leaving a chair with anger

                                                     woman won at ha sexualized war called sex

                                            cock sadness in the limes greens room

                                                       cock pissing illness stucK in horNbuckLe heLL(S)

                                                 cock balls stormsy field(s)

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                                                             cock sloshing down anal assholing

                                                           der AnaL cock

                                                             bodilY

                                        Purgations O sexualized fluiding Jousting

                                       Purgations O sexualized fluiding Jousting backside




*******ALL ILLUSTRATIONS DRAWINGS/PAINTINGS BY MATTHEW PONY PAYROLL BONES DOYAL PROCCTOR

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Excerpts from a 1997 drawn/painting series

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ONe of many visual journals kept in my mid to late teen years.  Minimalism calligraphy figurative animalistic mythos...Honestly I just feel i was channeling something....there are stories of ghosts in here....the raw burns of human form and human formlessness....

4 drawings and three 3 poems about the nervous system Mid August 2016

Inquiry

Are the ghosts clothed?

    Most ghosts are clothed.

Punished for the entire afterlife
       .....to wear Clothes

Yellow Summer 

Things are loose

       quivering slime in two
left hands

       Thar is no Good
money.

        dark yellow fields this awful
summer.
           
        Sex with ghosts.

Not enough sedatives

        You are having a
fit.   A nervous system fit.
  
          Your own nervous system
confusing the radiation 
that belongs 
           rightfully
to other nervous systems.

       Who is hindering your hiding?
Not
                 in the briars

        THis in the plain open field.  PLain sight.
                 where sun beams go hammering
into flesh skin  
           till nauseating
sweeping sickness.....
           Oh yes
a purpose to
     relate
                     there is no good.

Notes

Iron grate city sky...gruesome nostalgia.  The purpose of purposes...birds imitate bird calls.

Nerve endings begin outside the body.

His diagnosis was severe he had no bones.

Through These Landscapes

Through These Landscapes

Everything is moving, even in stillness-

The landscape, the entities, the bodies

               Flight action Kinetic

The simple horizon with vast sky

               Moon, sun---the in-betweens

Chasms between longitude and latitude

               The simple horizon encompasses all

The living in the after lives

               This is where one will always be---upon the landscape.

And the sun and the moon are not myth and some times sun and moon lay upon each other

In deaths…..copulations\

Looking  upon through.  The glass veil.  THrough the glass veil one can look to many outsides.

The violence of birds angels and ghosts with wings whom losing feathers

               Feathers that burst into flames in the crackling air

               You see---Memory always twines through, sky, landscape.

                              The visual is felt inside somewhere inside the interior of biology, nervous system wirings and the architecture of bones……

This is where soul and ghost become

One each other—Ghost duels soul

Soul duels ghost—

    Spectral awaits human. Human awaits spectral.

…...

where the angelic swim the light

    where the demonic swim the light

where the purity of the impure impervious angelic demonic ghosts with wings swim the light

    where Jacob’s ladder is abstracted distortions juxtaposed upon various reversals of itself within the dalliance and refractions of various light spectrums

               Where birds swarm the light

Where spirits swarm the light

Where birds and spirits tear

At the light

Upon the light

           

    Upon the color spectrums---where the statues move about

inside the blasting vibrancy of the wilderness (es)

………..

               A liberation from banal, the collective body mind banal-the singular banal dread body—

The biological banal—escape from the banalities and demands from the multitude of fascist banal created paradigms—derelict---that cork and curdle humanness.

           

Those malevolent spiritus making    dumb     Those that rule the world with the wrong basics

Let the color spectrum archaeology bestow

    Let the unknown be called forth from ethereal froth

There are no accidental divinations.

               Visions after Liberation—to show the unseen X-Ray of things—Kinetic X Rays—the mystical blood saturating the soul (s)//the Ghost (s)

               The depiction that is nature---and that is beyond nature—and that is the supernatural—and that is God—below the dismal bottom of doubt—there is God –beyond God—and the kinetic energy of such things crackles in the wild wind currents lacing Vast Sky.

NO Symbolic Rigour—

Many different strangers

Will see a multitude of various images in……these works…….

               One will see the dead.  The before born.   The Living and those things that are almost forever.—

One will see the memories of others.   The dissolving of the singular till

one finds the tilting emergence of the singular--

Distortion---is the oracle of clarities.

               Alchemy

                                               Alchemy which through mystery defeats THE WHEEL OF FATES FORTUNES

The holiness of birds angels demons in violence ecstasies

                   The devouring of any meditation no matter how brief or enduring duration.

                                   These depictions are places where one can walk about the field.

The interiors of the outside landscapes

** QUoTe unquoTe artist statement to accompany an art showing at XS on Charles Street beginning Feb. 11..  Five total paintings in all.  All for sale.  Three of the five are shown at page top.

Works on Paper late 2015-Jan 2, 2016

 

 

Late 2015-Jan 2nd 2016  oil pastels, oil paint, pen, on various paper